Starlingshade

[attr="class","arrgenMAINTEXT"]INDEPENDENT: if it wasn't for the structured clan life, starlingshade would probably make for a pretty confident loner. she's a strong warrior and stands on her own well. if only because she has to be. or she feels she has to be, as she grew up much too early, starting out as a kit. she feels she doesn't need anyone else to do things for her, nor does she need to be pitied in any way shape or form. she can take care of herself and she lets everyone know it.

BLUNT: unfortunately, while she's understanding in some ways, she's not above telling the truth like it is. she's not an empathetic person and can get on the nerves of others simply because she's so blunt about it. but she tells the truth and only the truth as she can't bring herself to find purpose in the art of lying. and lying is on her betrayal list. it hurts her deeply and will set off her wrath.

CONFIDENT: despite the insecurities of where she came from, her mentor did a bang-up job giving her confidence even if in the harshest way possible. he built her up and created a confident young molly. most insults and hurtful words roll right off her back, creating space for her to give her own set of words in return. and oh does she have words for you. she's strong and confident in everything that she does, overachieving, even if she's not the best at anything in particular. and she's strong in her love for her brother.

OUTSPOKEN: starlingshade is very well known for giving her piece on everything that comes her way. she's the type of cat that can debate a topic round and round for hours on end and still come out on top if only because she has the most logical answers and has the force to push her opinion on just about anyone. she's not the type to take on the answer "no" and will push her side of the story until the other party listens to her and reacts.

ACTIVE: action and time are two of the most precious things to starlingshade. she's an active warrior in the community. hardworking and straightforward, she gets the job done in record time, doing her overachieving thing once again. she hates laziness and she hates others wasting her precious time. she has worth and so you better give her the value and respect she deserves.

BITTER: no matter how much she tries to hide it or shove it down into the depths of the forest, starlingshade has a lot of hurts. not knowing her father, the cold demeanor of her mother, the abandonment of her and her brother.... these mark the creation of a cold and bitter molly who holds everyone at arm's length to keep herself from getting hurt anymore than she already has been.

RELIABLE: starlingshade is not the type of cat who lets things slip through her claws like sand. if she's given a task to do, she will make sure it's done in a timely manner and done right. a perfectionist through and through she also holds her head up high due to the integrity of the things she does. because of this strength, you know that when she finishes a project it's going to work well and right. and she never gives up.

ARROGANT: in her confidence comes the arrogance. she sees herself on a pedestal due to how perfect she actually is. while it's obvious that she's not perfect, in any sense of the word, she's convinced that there is no other cat, at least in shadowclan, who is better than her. if there was anyone who thought they'd be good at being a leader it's this gal. while she would never admit her "perfection" or her "ambition," starlingshade is definitely strong in her belief that she does everything "right."

RESPECTFUL: despite her "perfection" starlingshade is very careful to keep her ambitions to herself and does not mean she isolates or looks down on those who she sees as below her. she respects the high ranks and senior warriors and highly appreciates them and what they do. she thinks ravenstar is too soft but respects him all the same. it's harder for others to gain her respect due to her arrogance, but it's not impossible.

STUBBORN: if this wasn't apparent already starlingshade is not above putting everything that she is into one single thing at any one point in time. once she's made up her mind of something, she's all over it and there's no turning back.

[attr="class","arrgenMAINTEXT"]starlingkit never considered her early moons as a kithood. as curiosity killed the cat, starlingkit learned early on that her mother was not safe, and the topic of their father was not safe either. even before they were 4 moons old she was already learning that she was not meant to have a kithood like the other kits in the nursery. she was not allowed to be a kit. she was not allowed to make mistakes. so she learned early on not to even care about their mother or what she thinks of them at all.

despite that, there was a great amount of resentment and bitterness toward her, which caused the young molly to lash out consistently through talking back and protecting her brother from their mom's snapping and neglectfulness. she took care of crowkit. she didn't do everything for him, letting him learn things on his own, but she was not above having yelling matches with nightpool over whether or not he was being too loud. if only because she hated her mother and because she wanted to have yelling matches with her. it was the only real attention the two of them got.

finally, getting their first taste of freedom, the time came for them to become apprentices. crowpaw and starlingpaw were both ready. and while she didn't have the nicest mentor, starlingpaw almost instantly connected with him. applefang was a respected senior warrior who took very good care of his apprentice. he taught her everything he knew and was exceptionally surprised by her eagerness and talent. he was cold and drilled into her, but the structure of his curriculum was exactly what starlingpaw needed to grow the way she did. he did nothing for her and taught her through experience.

but in her hard work, and while she connected with her mentor, starlingpaw had no friends except her brother. she considered the two of them the best of the best and, while she never outwardly said anything, looked down on the other apprentices for not being at hardworking or talented as they were. she too would often have bouts of anger and bitterness with cats older and younger than her, even if they were always cooled by her mentor.

it was this behavior, however, that got her 3 more moons of training. she was out of control with her anger and bitterness. disrespecting her elders and the other apprentices alike. she was always fighting with her mother, and the only person she seemed not to fight with was crowpaw, now crowstrike. and it was a long hard road, but over those last three months, applefang taught starlingpaw how to use her words wisely and how to care little for what others thought about her. she learned to be confident in who she was, and to use her words to control the situation rather than send the situation out of control. it was a long hard road, but she finally made it, 3 moons later. it was certainly a bitter point for her. especially as other apprentices became warriors before her, including her own brother.

shortly after crowstrike became a warrior, nightpool was killed in a border skirmish by duskbreeze of thunderclan. and while she came to hate that thunderclanner with her life, she felt absolutely nothing for the death of her mother. however, she still held a vigil for her. spending one last night torturing her with silent bitter words as the she-cat went to take her spot in starclan. she hoped her afterlife was just as neglectful as her former life.